August 16th, 2008
BERDE
Posted by mandatory at 02:48 PM on August 16, 2008.
Dito mo unang hinawakan ng mahigpit ang mga kamay ko. Sa gitna ng kwartong ito, kayakap kita.. Hindi mo pinalampas ang pagkakataon na halikan ako, dito ko rin natikman ang tamis ng iyong mga malalagkit na halik. Pagkatapos ng dalawang taon, natikman ko ulit ang lasa ng isang matamis na halik. Maingay ang mga kaibigan ko sa kabilang kwarto, pero hindi ito hadlang para tumigil sa kakalakbay ng kamay mo sa dibdib ko. Mainit. Masarap. Nakaka tindig balahibo.
Pinababalutan ng makapal na kumot ang ating mga katawan habang nakaupo at kayakap ka. Nakapatong ang ulo mo sa balikat ko, at sa bawat hangin na lumalabas sa iyong mga bibig, umiinit lalo ang katawan ko. Masyadong malakas ang tukso na kunin ka nung gabing yon. Nanginginig ang aking laman sa iyo.
Sabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko kaya. Masyado nakong pagod sa paulit ulit na gawaing ito. Parang hindi ako handa na ibigay ang sarili ko sayo. Natatakot ako non na baka isa ka lang sa kanila.
At hindi mo binigay ang sarili mo sa akin nung gabing yon.
Pero bumalik ka kinabukasan. Hinalikan mo ako. At dun ko naramdaman na handa na ko.
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Ipagpapatuloy.
Syet! Tagalog.
July 28th, 2008
TWO SOULS, INTERTWINED.
Posted by mandatory at 09:33 PM on July 28, 2008.
(9) Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: (10) If they fall down, they can help each other up. But pity those who fall and have no one to help them up! (11) Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? (12) Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. - Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
It takes two to tango.
You took me on the dance floor, and since then we never stop dancing. I may have two left feet, but you helped me out with your two right. I'm so grateful to have you. I love you.
And I declared that the dead, who had already died, are happier than the living, who are still alive. - Ecclesiastes 4:2
July 23rd, 2008
NICCODEMUS
Posted by mandatory at 12:21 AM on July 23, 2008.
You may never missed a single mass and still be clueless about your faith. You may be very diligent into your work and still not happy about what you’re doing. You may be studying really hard but you still feel so ignorant. You may be dating a lot of men/women but still feel so lonely. You may be trying your best to be a faithful spouse but you still see yourself having an affair with someone else. You may have memorized the bible and still confused by what it's written.
And the list can go on.
I learned that you can be very religious and still feel lost... just like Niccodemus.
July 16th, 2008
LAST SONG SYNDROME
Posted by mandatory at 01:16 AM on July 16, 2008.
I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
Oldies but goodies.
July 10th, 2008
AFTER OFFICE
Posted by mandatory at 02:34 AM on July 10, 2008.
While I’m in the middle of my brain-dehydrating call, I imagine how great it would be to sleep with you again. I imagine how you touch my skin and make it tremble with such desire and then the stillness of the cold temperature will turn warm with just one long deep kiss.
Your godly physique puts admiration in my heart. Your manly chest that never fails to give me comfort and your heart… How can I ever forget your heart? That is the most beautiful thing God ever created. Your torso is an art of love, as sculptures would agree. I would remember how you put your manhood inside me… ever so slowly, that I would breathe with laborious effort. Sigh, such hunger causing me pain.
Put me to rest. Make me at peace. Right there in your arms.
When will I get a hold of you again?
July 4th, 2008
EYE CANDY
Posted by mandatory at 09:13 PM on July 4, 2008.
"There were no lies between me and you
You said nothing of what you knew
But there was still something in your eyes
Left me helpless and paralysed"
-No Ordinary Morning, Chicane
"The eyes can be daunting..."
-Andrea Lagdameo
"I didn't get much sleep just thinking about her, now I have this caterpillar-like-thing in my eyes..."
-Francis Tan
"...Look at you now."
-Anonymous
June 29th, 2008
1 MONTH OF BLISS
Posted by mandatory at 09:51 PM on June 29, 2008.
Today we celebrate our 1month exclusively-dating-relationship. I would say that we do have an unconventional way of working things out but we’re able to cope up with it. After years of endless uncalculated affairs with random men, after years mourning in silence, after years of having false hope, after years of extreme resentment, after years of solitude, I am now taking chances to put light into my life.
It’s funny because my normal routine changed since the day I started texting this immensely gorgeous looking guy. I wrote one entry about him before, just fantasizing on how great it would be to look into his eyes, touch his skin, travel my fingers on his hair and kiss him. Now, I get to have it and more.
There was one night when we talked about past relationships. When he shared his part, I completely understood what he’s been through. I realized that we have something in common in which I cannot say because it’s too profound to explain. And then he gave me an exciting invitation to take a little risk. And I obviously took that invitation with a happy heart.
There are times when I’m mad about him. Not a bad kind of mad though but rather a sweet-crazy-irresistible kind of mad. You know how it feels like when you anticipate too much of the time that you’re going to meet and then it would suddenly be cancelled because of one stupid weather? Yeah, I get that a lot. “Mad” I tell ya.
Basketball is his favorite sport. I am well convinced that I can never be a sporty girl and he’s not complaining about it anyways. I get to watch his game and meet some of his friends in basketball and work. I appreciate him doing that to me. The office is a place to be butchered with work, if fate is on a good mood… We get to meet at the pantry or at the smoking area (enough to make it through the day).
Babe, if you’re reading this, you pretty much know how much I feel about you. I’m completely fragile. Please handle me with love and care. I love you.
Damn, this entry is long.
June 27th, 2008
PARANOID
Posted by mandatory at 09:48 PM on June 27, 2008.
Stop for while.
Breathe.
Hold yourself together.
No, you did not see it.
And no, you’re not jealous.
Why would be jealous anyways?
Men crawl their way on your feet just to get your attention.
Trust me; you’re too beautiful to be jealous.
And why I’m I typing the words jealous twice?
I’m your conscience, dammit!
Okay, focus. Fooocus.
You still have work tom morning.
Lure him with your charm and wit.
June 26th, 2008
THE LOST SELF
Posted by mandatory at 05:42 AM on June 26, 2008.
Hearts and eye go traveling along the paths that have always brought them joy; and if anyone attempts to spoil their game, he only makes them the more passionate about it, God knows… So it was with Tristan and Isolde. As soon as they were forbidden their desire, and prevented from enjoying one another by spies and guards, they began to suffer intensely.
Desire now seriously tormented them by its magic, many times worse than before; their need for one another was more painful and urgent than it had never been.
Women do lots of things just because they are forbidden… Our Lord God gave Eve the freedom to do what she would with all the fruits, flowers and plants there were in Paradise, except for only one, which he forbade her to touch on pain of death… She took the fruit and broke God’s commandment… But it is my firm belief now that Eve would never have done this, if she had not been forbidden to.
--GOTTFRIED VON STRASSBURG,
Tristan Und Isolde, quoted in Andrea Hopkins, THE BOOK OF COURTLY LOVE
