Another Crazy Year For Me
Posted by kidbaliw at 12:41 PM on May 6, 2012 in sweet escape.
never imagined that I will have a chance to be with my family on my
special day of the year. It took me months to file a leave (just to be
away from work for a day) but due to luck I guess, I got two days off
from work and I didn't have to use my leave-yehey!
The first plan was to leave after my shift from work then head our way to the resort.
Due
to heavy rains, it didn't happen. Besides, I was too stressed from EDSA
traffic and my head's kinda not in place anyway. When I got home, my
parents and I talked about my plans for the next day, things to buy and
what to do yada yada.
Around 6am, the service came and we head off to Oasis Hotel and Resort in Tanza, Cavite.
The place was a 'okay' for me and I felt bad actually when my baby
dog Jordan can't come with us at the cottage. I had fun being with my
siblings, aunt and her kids as we celebrate my day as I aged for another
year.
However before I blow my candle, something came up. There's this guy
who got a cut at his leg which was really deep and his blood was all
over his leg (I felt like I was watching some scene in the movie, Saw).
My dad, who was a trained rescuer, helped them out and I will never
forget his famous line as he provided first aid:
Napkin! Pass me a napkin!
Which does makes sense- we have to put pressure to the wound to prevent blood loss.
The accident happen as we are preparing the cake and setting the
candles up. After the incident, everybody was making fun of me-like, I
planned it so everyone will take notice of me as I blow my cake.
Hahaha-very funny!
Putting fire on the candle wasn't easy. It was an effort for us to set it up-just for me to have that experience of 'blowing the candle on a cake' at my birthday. Well, determined as I am, you will laugh hard (I guess) if you knew what I did. Haha!
My sister Yzza wrote something in a paper (I had a
glimpse though) then she passed it on to my dad. One moment, I can hear
them calling my name as the live band at the resort greeted me and
played a song for me.
Cool. I was touched though. I love my little sister's sweetness!
Every year, my simple wish is to let the rain shower me blessings on
my day. As the saying goes, 'be careful what you wish for', I was
actually hoping for 'ambon' and not 'bagyo'
I paid for an extension at the resort and I guess, it's part of the
plan as heavy downpour of rain enveloped the place. Lightning and
thunderstorm were the sound effects as the heavens greeted me a happy
birthday.
We were stranded but I felt great. This is my best birthday that I had in my 26 years of existence-couldn't ask for more!
Additional to that, I had the chance to be with my baby on my birthday.
I aged again and I kept on asking them if I do look like one at my
age? Their replies were good as I always get a positive answer. 
See how sunny it was in the morning?
Cheers!
Currently listening to: Pyramid by Charice
Currently feeling: happy
nightmare...
Posted by Iammyown.emmcee at 03:38 PM on May 3, 2012.
I want to cry. I want to scream! I want to get mad! Is it true that I should trust my instinct? The voice inside of me telling the things that I have no control over? I spoke to someone about it recently, a good friend of mine and she told me that, “I should always trust my womanly instinct.” Should I? Is there even such thing? What if this is just my mind playing tricks on me and that there’s really nothing that I need to waste time and lose sleep on? If that’s the case then why has it been bothering me all this time? Why does the topic continue to lure me back to this insanely thoughts? Have I gone mad? Finally?
Insecurities? Who doesn’t have them, these days…
I just need answer and I think as long as the prolonging of not knowing goes on, I will lose my mind. But then what if I talk to him about it and it turns out that my biggest nightmare is actually factual occurrence… What do I do then and how to I deal with it? Me who always apologizes in the end regardless if I’m not at fault. Do I continue as if nothing happens and just hope that it never happens again? But what if I forgive and it continues on down the road…
I don’t know how wives forgives such nightmare? How do you fix and move on when trust is no longer involve in the relationship?
I’m losing my mind.
Currently listening to: the ticking of the clock
Currently feeling: sad
miserable
Posted by badjawong at 10:50 AM on April 30, 2012.
Looking back at those years after I graduated. I can only tell myself It's a miserable journey.
Nakakainggit yung mga kaklase kong nakapag establish na ng career nila the past few years and its good to see they excel on what they do --- because they love doing it.
At yun ang wala ako. Bagay/Trabaho na gusto kong gawin.
Ay tangina nag-rant lang ako ngayon lunes nato ah.
on getting married
Posted by badjawong at 10:35 AM on April 30, 2012.
"Pre, Magleave ka na sa June 8 ha, civil wedding namin. Wag ka mawawala ikaw din official futog tapos bench boys after party sa gabe! Mwah mwah tsup tsup!"
- Got this text last week and my jaw dropped. Sa totoo lang hindi ko, well di namin gustong magtotropa si Dark Anover para sayo. Masyado syang nagger, maingay at BUNGAGERA.
Sorry for the term but I will definitely slap the hell out of that girl given the chance na magbunganga ulit sya.
Pero, buhay mo yan. Gusto mo yan wala akong magagawa, I wish you all the best and I'll be there to take pictures on July 8, pero di ko sasama yung girl, naka crop sya lagi para disaster ang wedding pics nyo. Pero syempre joke lang yon.
Halong saya at lungkot ang naramdaman ko nang mabalitaan na 2 sa tropa ay ikakasal na. Masaya kasi panibagong yugto nanaman to sa ulul nilang buhay at malungkot kasi game over na sila tsaka di na namin sila masyado makakasama sa mga get together/weekly inuman.
Nakakatakot lang isipin yung mga responsibildad ng pagpapakasal. Yung pakikipagrelasyon nga lang eh nakaka freak out na pano pa kaya yung kasal? Andami dapat ganito ganyan, dapat ganito ang gawin. Tangina lang. Andaming rules nakakabwiset.
Well choice naman nila yan. Siguro lang hindi pako ganun ka mature or ka ready sa grabeng responsiblility ng pakikipagrelasyon lalong lalo na ang kasal.
Tsaka na siguro kapag boyfriend material nako. Hehe!
